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Fireworks are overestimated.

I was always wondering why people love firewoks. I mean, it’s just some BOOM BOOM and some coloured light in the sky. Isn’t it?

At the Theatron MusicSummer in Munich, on the former olympic area, there are fireworks once a week. And for three weeks, there are several Bands playing. Every day. For free. For FREE. Ok, they are not the Rolling Stones. They are small local Bands, and to play at the Theatron is a great chance to put one’s name on the map, to get known in the scene, and to get more fans. With the sun shining, there a quite a lot people listening.
But not to compare with the fireworks audience. Even if the weather is horrible, cold and wet, there are thousands of people coming, just to watch some BOOM BOOM.


I don’t get it.


Resignation, but not quite.

I noticed something, some time ago. Perhaps I already bothered you with this earlier, but I will mention it (again) right here and right now.

It kinda seems like this Blog is…
1.) an online storage for music vids, pics, and other stuff
2.) my own personal psychotherapist, who refuses to give me (enough) advice

Sad, sad, isn’t it?
About #1, I’m not that unhappy. I like to share things that please me, make me laugh (although there is almost nobody I can share it with). And I also like it at other peoples blogs. It kinda represents you, when you’re showing what you like. But there is still the point, when I think about it, and notice, that it is useless, as long as nobody visits your blog. But I won’t give up hope. Maybe, someday millions and millions of people will visit this site and make me happy. Haha. All right, I’m fantasizing.

#2 is a much bigger topic. I noticed, that whenever I’m updating this piece of data rubbish, I’m either in a explosive, depressed or overhappy mood, and I’ve got this strong need to talk to somebody about it.
It’s not, that I have no friends. But sometimes, I got the feeling, that there are too little of them. Sure, I got some really good friends I can talk to. Yes. But at this very moment I want all the world to know. Or I want to hear some different advice. In fact, I don’t really know what I want.
But as I was reading some older entries these days, I was surprised. For a person who doesn’t know me it must seem like I’m a lunatic, mentally unstable and depressive jung girl.
Well, all right. Um… No. Seriously. It just seems like that.
I just thought about what I wrote, and maybe – just to put the record straight – I’m telling all the shit here in order not to annoy somebody else. Yes. That’s how it is. I hate to have a problem and not being able to solve it alone, no matter what kind it is. And it often really helps to get some structure into your thoughts, as you have to to write them down.
But I won’t deny – I just need more attention!

So, that’s the way the cookie crumbles.

But… this was not, what I actually wanted to write about. I wanted to rant about school, again.
I got 8 points English. (15 is the best you can get, 0 the worst)
It’s ok. Not too bad, but also not really good. Almost all my grades I got this school year were like that. 7, 8 points.

And with that, I once more got confronted with the thought of middlingness. I thought about this part of me, that annoys me most. The one I’m sometimes a bit afraid of thinking about.
There is actually nothing special about me. Nothing I’m really good at. No spectacular hobbies. No hobbies at all, to be honest. No extraordinary interests. A little bit from everything. I’m interested in almost everything – a little bit. But it’s never enough to… I don’t know. It’s just this small-talk knowledge. Nothing I’m really good at. I’m just the averge. There was a time when I saw this as a kind of strengh.
But no more. It’s difficult to be self-confident and to define yourself, when there seems to be nothing you can be proud of. No… abilities you know you can rely on.
Maybe I just haven’t found something I’m good at. But I tried a lot, and I’m not sure if I’ll ever find something.
Seems like I’ll just have to accept to be boring.

Um, yes, I actually managed to post 3 new Songs, so visit and listen.

God is a DJ.

Reviews on a party night.


_(The text says: “God is a DJ – we gotta know it” –
_“On 02/04/09 the 12th grade of a Monastryschool for Girls is _dancing   into the spring with spirital succour. At the blessed age of 18 _years the doors of  “Meinburk” are opening for you. With the gentle gift _of 7€ you’re ensuring a place in heaven and you’re filling our empty _cash box.”)

On 02/04/09, we had out first “school”-party. (We organize partys to pay our prom-night. Well, actually, I am organizing parties…)
I was really afraid that there was nobody coming, but it went quite well. There were 200 people, who drank a lot of alcohol. Fortunately, as we had to reach a minimum rate at the bar.
Although it was a great party, with really good music, I was just happy when it was  finally over. At 3:00 am.
Never ever again I’ll wear high heels for going out. Never. Ever. My feet were hurting, well, everything was hurting, and a friend and I had to wait another 30 min for deduction.
I went to bed at 4:30 AM (!), and had to get up at 7:15 am, yes, for school.

I’ve rarely been so tired…
But it was worth it. We earned about 800€.

Watch this. Just watch. And listen. And ♥ it.

Platinum Pied Pipers

Finally, summer arrived in Munich. At least for today.

Once again, I became aware of how much I needed the sun. I mean, I’don’t need it always. ot all the time. But the last time, I’ve been pretty close to  dying. I was missing the warmth, ths light, and, yes, even some fucking birds getting much too loud way too early in the morning. I missed the feeling in the mourning, when you wake up, and you know, you’re gonna miss an opportunity if you don’t get up.

One song, quite on top of my summer-soundtrack, will definitly be On A Cloud by PPP feat. Karma Stewart. Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to find a video, so I’m gonna recommend the MySpace Site warmly to you! Listen to On A Cloud, and you will know what I mean.

Then, I just thought about adding some new movies. But the weather is just too good to do some PC-stuff. So I’ll just write a little to-do list.

  • Death at a Funeral
  • Juno
  • Death Proof
  • Memento
  • Good Night and Good Luck
  • Thank you for Smoking
  • Lady Henderson presenting
  • The Meaning of Life
  • The Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
  • Ray
  • Corps Bride
  • High Fidelity

That’ll do. I guess.

Have fun. Love life. Listen to good music.
Damn, things are definitely looking up!

Excursion on “Perfect Timing”.

per·fect adj., verb, noun
adj. 1. having everything that is necessary; complete and without faults or weaknesses.
2. completely correct; exact and accurate.
3. the best of its kind.
4. excellent; very good
5. SYN ideal
6. [only before noun] total; complete

tim·ing noun
1. [U,C] the act of choosing when sth happens; a particular point or period of time when sht happens or is planned.
2. [U] the skill of doing sht at exactly the right time.

[Oxford Advanced Learner's Dictionaly]

This is the definition of perfect timing the Oxford Dictionary gives. Sounds easy. But it isn’t.

I think I already somewhere mentiond, that my timing often is perfectly.
Perfect, yes, but perfectly wrong. At least, the timing of my feelings.
I don’t talk of love, being in love with somebody, or things like that. That’s an extra chapter, I’ll attend to in a later post. Maybe.
It’s about friendship. About being up to doing something with somebody. About going out or sitting at home.
Sometimes, you just need some time for yourself. And I don’t mean this girly-beauty-day-wellness-stuff. I mean to spend one day in bed, with a good book, good music, cookies and coffee. Or just going for a walk alone.
A day, you just don’t want to see somebody else. I gess you know that.
The problem is, it’s not just one day. I could spend weeks living like a hermit. Weeks, when everybody seems determined to tick me off. And I mean really everybody. I’m actually quite tolerant. I can laugh about people. I can ignore them, no problem.
But there are weeks, they just need to look at me, just need to breath, and I feel like slapping them right into their face.
Unfortunately, this mood is attracting nerving people like a moth is attracted to a flame. Exactly during this weeks, some good friends have a birthdayparty, or ask me out, or just want to meet me for a coffee and a good talk.
I don’t wanna say, that actually I’m in this mood, oh no. I can’t have enough people round me at the moment.
It’s more like everybody else can’t have anybody around.

Disgusting thing. I hate my timing.

I added some new Songs. and some new Movies., and changed the whole Stuff.-page. So, just have a look and listen.

General Overhault.

New year, new style.

Had to get something new round here, as frequent visitors of my blog may have noticed.
Also the music-page had to bite the dust. I just couldn’t keep up with updating. Ok, actually I’m just too lazy, but that’s not the point.
In short, it was renamed to Stuff. and now contains some thoughts in terms of songs, books, movies and Stuff. like that.
Just visit, listen, and read, and maybe even write down for me some of your thoughts.

I should actually be learning physics right now, but strangely enough I don’t fancy doing so. Just wanted to mention this somewhere, somehow.